Love Pome No. 98
If memory were impossible,
ice wouldn’t melt.
I wouldn’t imagine your death. So much
of my waking time
questioned, consulting a book
in which the orator says,
We are no longer lovers. We don’t drown in the sea
of ourselves. And proof? Being ill-trained
at secrets. I eject your hand from mine
in public darkness, become rotten
and watch your frustration cry to the night.
But man, man-man, where will we meet?
A sweet spot, islanding, umbrella drink, wood-grain
of your coffin–no, no, no, let's be
together. Here, hit me hard across the face.
Now turn into a cockroach or make me
come again. Not both, please, but somewhere
in the middle, we could stand on what turret
remains. Where exactly? Lift your foot. Here,
a floor, the stain before it touches down. Watch,
and keep watching. I am grateful
our love is not gut-wrenching. It has not made
an idiot of me. It’s our good breathing
and all else I refuse to give up.
To put my lips next to your cheek under
cover of sound, not shoreless but streaming
to the hill where you wait.
Emma Cameron is a senior at Sarah Lawrence from Philadelphia & editor at Love and Squalor. She loves Japanese maples, the fragment, and any dessert with a center.